Dirty Duromine

I want to blog about my Duromine experience. The experience where I turned evil... no seriously the shit that was going on inside my head was like something from the exorcist.

Lets start from the beginning. I was feeling really shit about my weight and googled weight loss products and found a site on duormine... the miracle drug that supresses your appetite and makes you lose weight very very quickly. I was very excited reading the bio about it and thought yep that sounds great for me. A couple of weeks later at my brothers engagement party I was talking to a guy who had lost 50kg in seriously 3 months and guess how DUROMINE.. he soon convinced me that it was a 'great start' to your weight loss journey and he is no longer on it just maintaining. The only catch was you needed a doctors prescription and that might be a little harder to come by

So I looked up my local bulk billing doctor and made an apt with the most asian sounding name I could find.
I got to the doctors and my apt pretty much went like this.

ME: Hi, I am feeling really depressed about my weight and was wondering if you could prescribe me some duromine
DOC: Step on the scales (say in asian voice)
DOC: 80kg, 175cm tall yes you are obese and in weight range for drug
ME: Oh ok
DOC: I put you on 40mg you come back 1 month to see me
ME: Ok

Then the doctor hands me my prescription to go get filled..

Yes seriously that was it. Here you go lady enjoy your drugs

No  blood pressure taken, no risks discussed, no family history questions. Hey lets not even start you on the low dose lets go straight for the money shot...

So I left the doctors rather pleased with myself and got my prescription filled. After paying over 100 dollars I wondered if my bulk billing doc had shares in duromine hence passing them out so easily.

Now this is where things start getting messy.

So in the first few days I took my duromine and I honestly didnt feel hungry at all. I had to remind myself to still eat little meals. I could honestly feel my heart pumping faster when it would normally be at its resting rate. Oh well that can only be a good thing right...?? Surely its ok to be watching tv with your heart racing... this is burning calories baby!!

Now I jumped on the scales on day 3 and had lost 3kg! No exercise involved and I was feeling pretty bloody chuffed about myself. I thought I would add some exercise and really get this weight loss happening..
The duromine disagreed with this exercise shit and seriously I fainted from a body attack session at the gym. I collapsed and awoke surrounded by lycra and camel toe....

Yet I convinced myself that this meant I was just working too hard.... And from now on I would just let the duromine take care of the weight and leave the gym the hell out of the equation.

After a month I had lost 6.5kg and everyone was commenting on how good I looked. I thought I was onto a winner. I didnt have any of the symptoms I had read on the internet about sleeplessness and dry mouth so I thought I was unstoppable. I went back to my doctor and he gave me my script after my weigh in for another month.

This was the month when things went to SHIT very quickly...

I woke up on the 2nd day of my 2nd month on duromine and was like a female version of the hulk... no I had not gained muscles overnight I had gained ANGER!!

I seriously could and would lose my shit over anything.

A day would start like this.

My alarm would go off - this would send me into a rage
Oh great I have to go to work - this would send me into a rage
My 3 year old would smile at me - OH NO YOU DIDNT JUST SMILE AT ME - yes insert rage.

It got so bad that I actually started wanting to break shit and I did. I could not get the batteries out of the remote so I just smashed the remote against the wall. My 3 year old looked at me and said "dont throw things mum thats naughty!" and I lost my shit at him. I seriously dropped my first F bomb at a 3 year old who was giving me the same advice that I give him. As I looked at his horrified face and massive eyes welling with tears I felt like dirty scum but skinny dirty scum.

Who the hell was I? What the hell had I become?? And I just couldnt shake this anger. My husband just had to say something to me and I would bite his head off and start a fight. Things were going to shit but hey I was losing weight.

The day I realised that the duromine had changed who I was and that I didnt want to be this moody, angry, depressed person anymore was the day I ripped my son one for not putting on his shoes fast enough. I went off my head. He said "mum, why are you mad, I just dont know how to get them on the right foot but I love you'. I would like to say at that moment I said I love you too and threw the duromine in the bin but I think I said something like "I dont care just get your fecking shoes on so we can go!!!!!!

Mentally I knew I was acting like a bitch and irrational and I wanted to stop but I couldnt.. well I could  I just had to stop the duromine and so i did!

I was still angry for about a month of quitting it and I put the weight back on so quickly and then a few more kg. I felt worse than ever...

BUT I didnt transform into the Hulk at the drop of a hat, my husband was sososo happy that I was no longer evil and I'm sure my son was glad to get his mum back.

For those of you who want to try duromine DONT. It is not worth it trust me. It is likened to speed and will alter your personality and the side effects are not worth it.

After I finished the duromine I did some more research on forums and found I was not alone. Most users complained of anger, depression, mood swings. I read tales of duromine causing divorce, attempted suicide and even permanent changes in personality.
I have lost over 6 kg in 5 weeks on this 12WBT and I have worked hard for every bloody kg of it! I am in control of this weight loss, not some drug!!